the night i decided to stay up

Why, you might ask, did I decide to stay up tonight rather than go to bed?  It was a spiritual moment of sorts that kept me up.  I needed to let myself enjoy my own time.  I know how to do it and do it often; it's just when it comes to bedtime I often like to escape into the sheets.  It's a refuge that keeps me from facing myself: a person capable of spending time alone.  It's a growing up process I guess.

I stayed up tonight to enjoy some alone time.  I make bracelets out of string, read Dreams from My Father by Barack Obama, and plan out my schedule for the next few weeks.  Classes start this week so it was a fun process to plan out my schedule, being that there is so much in it.  I don't know how I feel about being busy; I change my mind everyday.

Well, after all that writing about the huge move from home to college, I am finally here and unpacked.  Can you believe it?  Not only am I here, 14 hours away from where I was yesterday, but I am unpacked and comfortable here.  That's quite the transition.  I can't believe I made it!  All with the help of my mother.  Couldn't have done it without her.