college bound

Getting myself off to college has been quite the hustle. First I had to spend weeks preparing mentally for the drive and the major change in location that comes with it. Then I had to say bye to people that mean so much to me and have been in my life consistently over the summer. One of the most meaningful goodbyes came at the end of a long shift at the coffee shop. My boss came in for about the seventh time that night to say bye and give each other a hug. I have learned a lot from her as well as that job and I will miss it. I'm thankful though that I have something to miss because it hasn't always been that way in the past.

Following all this I wanted to do some shopping before I took off so that my life would be easier when I arrived in Memphis. I didn't want to save everything for Memphis because the bills would get overwhelming. It was better for me to spread it out and buy some things ahead of time here at home while I had the time. It was either shop or sit and think about leaving so I took the less challenging of the two, the big wuss that I am.

Last I had to pack the car with all of my stuff: bedspread, books, clothes, laptop, TV, and other things. I was determined to do it on my own without any parents interfereing and taking control of the situation. I got all of my stuff the car and felt better having done it. Basically my point is that there is nothing else to worry about. There is nothing to worry about. There is nothing left to do. There is no more that needs to be said. There is not any holding back or any futher steps that will come before my big trip off to college. I am going and that's all that is happening. Frightening, huh? And you'd think this was my first year! But it isn't my first year leaving home, it's my fourth. I am used to this -- I just don't know what awaits.